Louise Thompson has spoken about her fears that her ongoing battle with post-traumatic stress disorder will affect her son Leo as he grows up.
The former Made in Chelsea star, 32, has struggled with PTSD and perinatal anxiety since the birth of Leo in November – and detailed how she worries she won’t be strong enough to throw her son a first birthday party.
Sharing a series of sweet snaps with Leo and fiance Ryan Libbey, she wrote: ‘I had a reflexology session the other day (which pretty much doubled as a therapy session) and we discussed recovery. There is no surprise.
CLEAR: Louise Thompson has spoken about her fears that her ongoing battle with post-traumatic stress disorder will affect her son Leo as he grows up.
‘We agree that it doesn’t matter what your situation is: whether you’re grieving a loss, going through a divorce, physically hurting, dealing with PTSD, divorce or other mental health conditions, whatever it is… one thing that can make . recovery.
‘Having small children is 10x harder. I absolutely hate to admit it but it’s true. If you’ve been through this, I’m sure you can relate. Having someone (or many little people) who depend on you 100% when going through a tumultuous time. Especially if they are not in school yet.
‘You must plaster that strong face together, religiously put one foot in front of the other, stick to your routine reciting ‘this too shall pass’ and firmly park your needs and recovery until the end of the day. Put your little ones to bed and hope they’ve drifted off into a deep peaceful sleep (the longer the better)… then, and only then, can you unpack everything that’s going on in your head.
Her strength: The former Made in Chelsea star, 32, has struggled with PTSD and perinatal anxiety since the birth of Leo in November – and detailed how she worries she won’t be strong enough to throw her son a first birthday party.
Inspiration: Louise shared some sweet photos with Leo on her Instagram
‘All your emotions are free to come out in a big fat mess or you can sit and be still with whatever c**p you’re dealing with and try to process it, free of the guilt you might have caused their sponge. mind.’
Louise said she tries to hide how she feels during the day to protect her when she feels unwell, saying: ‘As you already know one of my biggest recurring fears during this whole process is that I’m going to be all over the place. As Leo grows and this will adversely affect his development so I try to sneak in as much as possible during the day! It honestly always bothers me.
‘That, and the thought that I won’t be strong enough to throw him a birthday party in November.
Very brave: Louis wrote a candid post updating followers on his progress
‘I want him more than anything to be loved, nurtured, supported and to have fun with his parents. I want stability for her. Not for constantly having weird moments for me.
‘I often struggle to explain this to myself or my partner, so I really don’t want to explain the complexities of my mind to a poor innocent child. The whole thing also feels quite contradictory because they are the reason you keep going but it could also be the reason things take so long to process and get better?!
‘I’ve managed to process things quickly in the past through talking therapy etc. But it feels very different and very slow. I have never suffered with anything like this.
‘Gone are the days,’ joked my lovely reflexology lady, of staying up until noon and going out on a bender with girlfriends to remove things. She was absolutely right.
‘I mean that doesn’t work for me anymore anyway with my whole fear of lying in bed surrounded by obsessive thoughts and fear of eating anything that could affect my medication, my colitis or my recovery! I don’t think I’ll ever drink again tbh. It’s been almost two years and I’m so scared.’
‘Speaking of spending time with myself in the evening… I’m guessing that we have a really tight routine in the evenings that might be one of the reasons why I always feel better around 5pm? Something changes in my mind.
‘The programs that were damaged in the computer slot are back in place. Has anyone else experienced this? Maybe it’s because it’s my ‘recovery time’. It’s not even a conscious decision but my body is somehow signaling to my mind that I can live without completely irrational fear. It’s saying yes.’
It comes after Louis shared a candid post detailing a difficult day that saw him ‘cry at everyone who stepped foot in his house’ as he struggled with ‘unbearable brain movements’.
In a post shared on Instagram Stories on Wednesday, she said, ‘Real thing. Today I cannot hide my tears, I have cried for every poor person who steps into our house.’
‘Real talk’: It comes after Louise shared a candid post detailing a difficult day which saw her ‘cry at every person who set foot in the house’, as she struggled with ‘unbearable brain movements’.
Along with a sad-looking selfie, she added: ‘The brain movement is unbearable. Someone please remove it.’
The reality star has been battling post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and post-natal anxiety after experiencing two near-death experiences during the birth of Leo eight months ago.
She has recently been trying to reduce her antidepressant dosage under the guidance of her medical team.
Last week the mum-of-one admitted she was struggling with her emotions as she struggled with ‘mum guilt’ and her disappointment at losing her close friend’s wedding.
What is postpartum anxiety?
Studies show that 17 percent of new mothers experience postpartum anxiety after giving birth.
This is thought to be due to a combination of the shock of parenthood, hormonal fluctuations, and the impact on sleep and stress levels in family life.
Some women experience generalized anxiety disorder postpartum, which is defined as a persistent state of anxiety.
This is where you worry about everything from your baby’s feeding patterns to your ability as a parent.
Postpartum obsessive compulsive disorder occurs when a woman experiences disturbing thoughts about harming her baby.
And postpartum health anxiety is worrying that something might be wrong with the baby’s health.
Many anxiety sufferers feel stressed and on edge, and struggle with constant feelings of fear.
They may even be paranoid that people might say something is wrong.
And their mind is often preoccupied with thoughts and constantly focusing on negative situations.
Physical symptoms may include:
- Headaches and muscle tension
- Pins and needles
- Feeling light-headed or dizzy
- Sweat or hot flushes
- Need to go to the toilet more or less often
- Itching sensation in stomach
- Panic attacks
Treatment consists of talking therapies and anti-anxiety medications.
People can help themselves cope by focusing on small things, such as details in a picture or the fabric of their clothing.
Breathing exercises and staying active can also help.
Sharing photos from her London home on Wednesday, Louise admitted she was ‘struggling a lot this morning’.
‘I have to be honest I feel a great sense of comfort and connection here.
I feel a sense of security, like nothing can go wrong because we’re all in this together. So I hope you don’t mind but I will stick to it,’ he added, willing to share his feelings.
Louis performed his morning A qigong routine, a system of coordinated body posture and movement, breathing, and meditation, which she has been practicing for the past week to give her ‘steadiness’.
She then explained why the day was so hard for her, that she was trying to lower her dose of antidepressants.
She wrote, ‘I am trying to reduce my Mirtazapine dosage. ‘I really want to stabilize my body and mind naturally. I’m 4 days into the low dose and this morning I feel all over the place.’
‘I feel really dizzy and confused and very out of body. As if you don’t know where to put yourself. I can’t sit or think straight.’
‘I feel like my nervous system is out of whack. Thank goodness Leo is in nursery and I have Ryan.’
‘Sometimes I wonder how this all happened to me? Give me back my old mind. I beg you.’
Louise later shared her feelings of ‘mum guilt’ about sending her son to nursery two days a week, explaining that she didn’t even tell her fans about Leo’s nursery routine because she felt ‘too guilty to send him’.
‘I think Ryan mentioned it casually in a story a while back and I freaked out a bit,’ she admitted.
‘Tbh when I think back to a few months ago, I find it nothing short of miraculous that I managed to accomplish the simple task of finding and enrolling him in a lovely little school. It is necessary to remove the mother’s guilt.’
To add to her struggles, Louise said she was forced to miss an important event this month – her best friend Binky Felstead’s wedding in Corfu.
‘Pants are nice too because I’m missing my beautiful friend’s wedding in Greece this week due to a boring hospital infusion tomorrow and other awkward medical appointments this week,’ Lewis wrote.
‘I love you @binkyfelstead.’
Louis’ MIC Paul Binky held a second wedding ceremony with his fiance Max in Greece last week after legally marrying in London last year.
If you have been affected by this story please contact the Birth Trauma Association at birthtraumaassociation.org.uk
For help and support with perinatal mental illness please contact PANDAS on 0808 1961 776
Tough times: The former Made in Chelsea star is battling post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and post-natal anxiety after two near-death experiences during childbirth eight months ago.
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